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Random numbers are random

001. Real name? - Emma
002. Nickname(s)? – I don't have one T_T Online, it's ColorPixie.
003. Zodiac sign? - Cancer
004. Male or female? - Female
008. Hair color? – Dyed bright orange
009. Long or short? - short
010. Loud or Quiet? – That varies a lot. When I'm hyper, I'm very loud. And when I'm emo, I'm very quiet. :I
011. Sweats or Jeans? – Preferably sweats, but I mostly wear jeans. Or leggings.
012. Phone or Camera? – Phone so I can text my boyfriend and other important persons
013. Health freak? – Not at all. I basically cheat on my boyfriend with Mc. Donald's.
014. Drink or Smoke? – If I had to choose one, it'd be drink
016. Eat or Drink? – I love drinking milk more than any other consuming acts :I
017. Piercings? – Getting a belly button piecing as soon as I can, and I have basic ear rings.
018. Tattoos? – I do want one, but I think I will be kind to my future self and not get one.

HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane? – Yes. More than once.
020. Been in a car accident? – Almost :s
021. Been in a fist fight? – Was beaten up by my childhood friend once. I tried to fight back, but meh. It was more him beating the shit out of me >_>

FIRSTS:
022. First piercing? – basic ear rings.
023. First best friend? – The first I remember is Patrick. The one who beat me up. He brought me up to be a nerd
025. First award? – Won a drawing competition when I was five. Got a giant dog plushie.
026. First crush? – Believe it or not, the guy's name was Sebastian. I still think he's nice, but not in –that- way ;3
028. First big vacation? – France for three weeks with my family when I was six
LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to? – My boyfriend.
030. Last person you texted? – Online? xxAna-Christxx
031. Last person you watched a movie with? – Mom and dad. Don't remember which film xD
032. Last food you ate? – Pizza
033. Last movie you watched? – Last one I actually remember watching? 127 Hours. It amazed me even though I ususally don't like movies.
034. Last song you listened to? – Dischord www.youtube.com/watch?v=3W3XUt…
035. Last thing you bought? – A bunch of stuff in a second-hand shop. Among those things was a William'y belt for the cosplay I'll probably never finish.
036. Last person you hugged? – Boyfriend ~

FAVES:
037. Food?  - Just… Sushi
038. Drinks? –Milk and chokolate milk
039. Clothing? – Oh, almost anything. From waistcoats to oversized sweaters, from leggings to booty shorts
040. Book? – The Bartimaeus trilogy is probably the only thing I love more than Kuroshitsuji. Lord of the Rings is still struggling, but I think it's losing.
041. Music? – Again, most. Right now? Anything Kuroshitsuji related, or U-KISS
042. Flower? - daisies
043. Colors? – Look at my name. I'm allowed to say "all." But it'd be red if I could only choose one.
044. Movie? – Do musicals count? The Most Beautiful Death in the World, then.
045. Shoes? – Either Converse All Stars or something extrenely high heeled and sexy
046. Subjects? -  Music, English and Arts.

IN THE PAST YEAR I ... :
047. [x] kissed in the snow
048. [ ] celebrated Halloween
049. [x] had your heart broken
050. [ ] went over the minutes on your cell phone
051. [xxxxxxxxx] someone questioned your sexual orientation
052. [ ] came out of the closet
053. [ ] gotten pregnant
054. [ ] had an abortion
055. [ ] done something you've regretted
056. [x] broke a promise (Probably. But I don't remember)
057. [xxxxxx] hid a secret
058. [xxxxxxxxxXXXXXXX] pretended to be happy
059. [xx] met someone who changed your  life.
060. [] pretended to be sick
061. [x] left the country
062. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
063. [x] cried over the silliest thing
064. [x] ran a mile
065. [ ] went to the beach with your best friend
066. [ ] stayed single the whole year
CURRENTLY:
067. Eating? - Pizza
068. Drinking - Water
069. I'm about to? – Write a Danish essay =_=
070. Listening to? – Still Dischord
071. Plans for today/tomorrow? –homework and stalking JustZoni ;3

YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? – So freaking bad. But I can wait
074. Want to get married? – Yesssss
075. Careers in mind? – I have no idea, honestly. I just want to learn Japanese xD

WHICH IS BETTER ON A BOY/GIRL?
076. Lips or eyes? – Eyes, definitely. But lips –feel- better ;3
077. Shorter or taller? – For my partner? Taller
078. Romantic or spontaneous? – Spontaneous
079. Nice stomach or nice arms? – I have something for arms, but without a nice atomach they're nothing. ;3 I'm so demanding xD
080. Sensitive or loud? – Sensitive, definitely
081. Hookup or relationship? - Relationship.
082. Troublemaker or hesitant? – Just a little troubly, maybe.

HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts? – Wearing the contacts right now. Before that, I had red glasses
084. Ran away from home? – Once, when I was two years old.
085. Held a gun/knife for self defense? – Nope. Denmark is boring.  
086. Killed somebody? – Uhm… How do I put this …? No.
087. Broken someone's heart? – Yes  T_T Sorry, Benjamin OTL
088. Been arrested? – Nope, never.
089. Cried when someone died? – A few times in real life, several times in movies.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself? -  Most of the time, yes.
091. Miracles? – Yes. But I doubt they will ever happen to me.
092. Love at first sight? – Yes. Its chemistry in the brain. It works all your life.
093. Heaven? – Yes.
094. Santa Claus? – Nope.
095. Sex on the first date? – Bad idea
096. Kiss on the first date? – probably a bad idea

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? –  Not just one Come to me, all my American friends! ;u;
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? – Other than the fact that I'm a lazy mother fucker? Yes, I am.
099. Do you believe in God? I do.

I've kinda realized how lame the story is. Starts here, to those who didn't know: Save The Last Dance - Chapter One.

First of all, it needs a new name, because "Save The Last Dance" is... Kinda taken. I have no idea what I was thinking when I named it. My past self has always been a moron.
Does anyone have any ideas? I'm a dork for asking my watchers about this, I know.

Next, I... Didn't know how to write when I started this. And please don't go "Oh, no, you're so great, please keep going," because... It's wrong. So if I continue it, I will need to edit a whole lot in the other chapters first.

I think I will continue both endings, but I simply don't know. My life isn't so great, but what is great is the amount of extremely bad grades I get. I'll need to do something about that too, so please bear with me even if it takes months.

I'm still open to ideas, both for the story, for names to it and to other randomness, so spam me all you want.


I hope I didn't ruin anyone's day or anyting   notthatIhaveanyfansatall

Saw at zoni's

Level 1
( ) Smoked a cigarette.
( ) Smoked a cigar.
(x) Kissed a member of the same sex.
SO FAR: 1

Level 2
(x) Are/been in love.
(x) Dumped someone.
( ) Been fired.
(x) Been in a fist fight. (I lost T_T )
SO FAR: 4

Level 3
(x) Had a crush on an older person.
(x) Skipped class. ( - But it's not like I do it a lot.)
( ) Slept with a co-worker.
( ) Seen someone/something die.
SO FAR: 6

Level 4
( ) Had/have a crush on one of your DA friends.
(x) Been to Paris.  
(x) Been to Spain.
(x) Been on a plane.
( ) Thrown up from drinking.
SO FAR: 10

Level 5
(x) Eaten sushi. (QuQ)
( ) Been snowboarding.
( ) Met someone in person through the internet.
( ) Been in a mosh pit.
SO FAR: 11

Level 6
( ) Been in an abusive relationship.
(x) Taken painkillers. (Never on daily basis, though)
(x) Liked/loved someone who you couldn't have.
(x) Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by.
(x) Made a snow angel.
SO FAR: 15

Level 7
( ) Had a tea party.
(x) Flown a kite.
(x) Built a sand castle.
( ) Gone mudding.
(x) Played dress-up.
SO FAR: 18

Level 8
(x) Jumped into a pile of leaves.
(x) Gone sledding.
( ) Cheated while playing a game.
( ) Been Lonely. (I never understood how that is possible. Someone tell me?)
( ) Fallen asleep at work/school.
SO far: 20

Level 10
(x) Watched the sun set or rise.
( ) Felt an earthquake.
( ) Killed a snake. (Why would someone do that? They are so cute TAT )
SO FAR: 21

Level 11
(x) Been tickled.
( ) Been robbed/vandalized.
( ) Been cheated on.
(x) Been misunderstood.
SO FAR: 23

Level 12
(x) Won a contest.
( ) Been suspended from school.
( ) Had detention
(/) Been in a car/motorcycle accident. (I was so close once that it counts as a half :I )
SO FAR: 25,5

Level 13
(x) Had/have braces.
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night.
( ) Danced in the moonlight.
SO FAR: 26,5

Level 14
(x) Hated the way you look.
(x) Witnessed a crime.
( ) Pole danced.
( ) Questioned your heart.
(x) Been obsessed with post-it notes. (I am a friggin addict. How did I remember anything without them?)
SO FAR: 29,5

Level 15
(x) Squished barefoot through the mud.
( ) Been to the opposite side of the world.
(x) Swam in the ocean.
(x) Felt like you were dying.
SO FAR: 32,5

Level 16
(x) Cried yourself to sleep.
( ) Played cops and robbers.
(x) Recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers. (Recently?)
(x) Sang karaoke.
( ) Paid for a meal with only coins.
SO FAR: 35,5

Level 17
(x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't. (Every. Freaking. Day.)
(x) Made prank phone calls.
( ) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose.
(x) Kissed in the rain.
SO FAR: 38,5

Level 18
( ) Written a letter to Santa Claus.
(x) Watched the sunset/sunrise with someone you care/cared about.
(x) Blown bubbles.
(x) Made a bonfire on the beach or anywhere.
SO FAR: 41,5

Level 19
( ) Crashed a party.
( ) Have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people.
(x) Gone rollerskating/blading.
(x) Had a wish come true.
( ) Been humped by a monkey.
SO FAR: 43,5

Level 20
(x) Jumped off a bridge.
( ) Jumped off a cliff
(x) Screamed bad words.
( ) Swam with dolphins. (... But I've touched one QuQ)
SO FAR: 45,5

Level 21
(x) Got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cubes.
( ) Kicked a fish. ( >____> )
(x) Worn the opposite sex's clothes.
( ) Sat on a rooftop and watched the stars.
SO FAR: 47,5

Level 22
(x) Screamed at the top of your lungs.
(x) Done/attempted a one-handed cartwheel. (I could almost do it 8D )
( ) Talked on the phone for more than 6 hours.
(x) Recently stayed up really late talking to someone you care about.
SO FAR: 50,5

Level 23
(x) Picked and ate an apple right off the tree.
(x) Climbed a tree.  
( ) Had/been in a tree house.
(x) Been scared to watch scary movies alone.
SO FAR: 53,5

Level 24
(x) Believe in ghosts. (I just don't call them ghosts. And they are definitely not spirits of dead people)
(x) Have had more than 30 pairs of shoes. (I am a girl! Of course I have~)
( ) Gone streaking.
( ) Visited a jail.
SO FAR: 55,5

Level 25
( ) Played chicken.
(x) Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on.
(x) Been told you're hot by a complete stranger.
( ) Broken a bone.
(x) Been easily amused.
SO FAR: 58,5

Level 26
( ) Caught a fish then ate it later. (I never even caught a fish orz)
( ) Made a porn video/got asked to make one. (I have been asked to take dirty pictures, though ;3 )
(x) Caught a butterfly. (I was good to it! Please, no hard feelings. He could'nt fly, and I took him inside and gave him flowers and taught him to fly. I know it sounds weird, but I swear it's true)
(x) Laughed so hard you cried.
(x) Cried so hard you laughed.
SO FAR: 61,5

Level 27
( ) Mooned/flashed someone.
(x) Had someone moon/flash you.
( ) Cheated on a test. (I wouldn't even know how to do that xD)
(x) Forgotten someone's name.
( ) French braided someone's hair.
( ) Gone skinny dipping.
( ) Been kicked out of your house.
SO FAR: 63,5

Level 28
(x) Rode a roller coaster.
( ) Went scuba-diving/snorkeling.
(x) Had a cavity.  
( ) Blackmailed someone.
( ) Been blackmailed.
SO FAR: 65,5

Level 29
(x) Been used.
( ) Fell going up the stairs.
(x) Licked a cat.
( ) Bitten a cat.
( ) Gone to a rave party.
SO FAR: 67,5

Level 30
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint.
( ) Had sex in the rain.
( ) Flattened someone's tires.
( ) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on.
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas. (I never bought gas ;3 But I have a driver's license )
TOTAL: 67,5
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0-10: Go outside.
11-20: Get a life.
21-30: Loser.
31-40: Loner.
41-50: You have friends?
51-60: You're kinda-sorta cool.
61-70: I'll hang with you.
71-80: Mr. Cool.Awesome
81-90: Dude, you're sweet!
91-100: Friggin' awesome!
101-110: Woah!
111-119: Holy crap, you belong in a hospital!
120: Corpse...


So... I'm kinda boring, I guess? When kicking fishes and killing snakes are the criteria for being awesone, I don't mind.

Hi everyone ^o^ (that means the two, maybe three individuals who read my journals)

I have made some major changes to Helpless. So~ if you want to maybe re-read it now that it actually makes sense, please go ahead d;
There's something about the ending that's still not perfect, but as soon as I come up with something, I'll make it make sense


That's all.



Stay tuned, I beg you